Random thought *I think it's funny that the types of cars I had growing up aren't even close to safe to most people. So many high schoolers these days have such a cushy life.
Random thought #2 *Sometimes I think that professionalism is funny. It seems like your acting, playing a part to fit in. The effective workers do something, everyone else seems to pretend to do something.
Another day:
I don't think that I'm helping enough. My job title is Volunteers In Service To America and I still think that I'm not making a big enough impact. I'm trying to find more ways to volunteer in my community, but the places that I'm used to aren't working out here. I need to ask around, but not that many people around me volunteer. I forget that my whole 8-5 job is helping the community; just because I'm not getting my hands dirty doesn't mean that my work isn't making a difference. In fact I'm learning that the most significant amount of change tends to come from working on the inside. :)
Though we tremble before uncertain futures, may we meet illness, death and adversity with strength, may we dance in the face of our fears. -Gloria E. Anzaldúa
Saturday, April 23, 2011
April Thoughts...
So throughout the month I have been writing down different thoughts that come to me while I'm sitting at my desk starring at my computer screen. Not sure which ones came first. :)
1.I'm not always thinking about how my words are effecting other people, or even how it makes them think. I comment about $, not having a lot, or something that insinuates the lack there of and then I'm not ready for the response. Stopping to consider the outcomes of my words before I say them would be better than what I am doing at that moment. I am just end up babbling because I just want to talk. I don't seem to care what I say or how it effects another person's thoughts.
It is so hard for me to just be patient. I don't understand why I think that I am so important and that what I have to say can't wait another minute to hear another person's thoughts. I feel so selfish lately. I came here to be love; to practice humility. I feel like I am failing at it. If I learn nothing else, I need to understand that humility is the highest degree of wisdom. I was reading in "The future of Peace" today and i read something very powerful. "If your mind doesn't stay with your body in the present, all sorts fo evil things--all sorts of distractions--will come flowing in to overwhelm it, making it fall away from its inner worth..."
I too often find myself making up my own stories in my head trying to make sense of everything or imagine scenarios of how things will go in the future. A lot of times that alone makes up my mood. If I just concentrated on living in the present, I would be a lot happier.
"If a man knows not what harbor he seeks, any wind is the right wind." -Seneca
1.I'm not always thinking about how my words are effecting other people, or even how it makes them think. I comment about $, not having a lot, or something that insinuates the lack there of and then I'm not ready for the response. Stopping to consider the outcomes of my words before I say them would be better than what I am doing at that moment. I am just end up babbling because I just want to talk. I don't seem to care what I say or how it effects another person's thoughts.
It is so hard for me to just be patient. I don't understand why I think that I am so important and that what I have to say can't wait another minute to hear another person's thoughts. I feel so selfish lately. I came here to be love; to practice humility. I feel like I am failing at it. If I learn nothing else, I need to understand that humility is the highest degree of wisdom. I was reading in "The future of Peace" today and i read something very powerful. "If your mind doesn't stay with your body in the present, all sorts fo evil things--all sorts of distractions--will come flowing in to overwhelm it, making it fall away from its inner worth..."
I too often find myself making up my own stories in my head trying to make sense of everything or imagine scenarios of how things will go in the future. A lot of times that alone makes up my mood. If I just concentrated on living in the present, I would be a lot happier.
"If a man knows not what harbor he seeks, any wind is the right wind." -Seneca
Monday, April 18, 2011
Travel...it's gonna happen
I'm making a plan, a decision, a goal right now to do what I've always wanted to do...I'm going to travel. I want to spent a whole summer, that's 4 months (yes, a college summer), traveling through South America. I am going to start saving my money now and for the next 24 months, that's two years, and have enough money to spend a whole summer traveling.
I want so badly to see the world. I see people hiking through the jungle on the travel channel or friends climbing up mountains in the Andes and I just shake with excitement. I want to go out...I want to sleep in the rainforest and get down poured on...I want to see el Tierra del Fuego and learn to tango in Argentina. I see so many of my traveling friends experiencing all these exciting things and I want it too. If anyone wants to join me on this quest...let it be known...
2013 here I come!
I want so badly to see the world. I see people hiking through the jungle on the travel channel or friends climbing up mountains in the Andes and I just shake with excitement. I want to go out...I want to sleep in the rainforest and get down poured on...I want to see el Tierra del Fuego and learn to tango in Argentina. I see so many of my traveling friends experiencing all these exciting things and I want it too. If anyone wants to join me on this quest...let it be known...
2013 here I come!
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